Today I was out Christmas shopping. I am not a big fan of crowds and really don't like shopping. Being in crowds with people standing over me so closely that I can feel their breath on my neck drives me nuts. The mall was terrible and after the mall, I went to Target. I was looking at the infant/baby clothes to find some sleepers for my new nephew Casey (my sister in law said he was in dire need of some good ones). I became annoyed because they had so many girls infant/baby clothes. I could hardly find anything for boys. The few things I found all had Christmas expressions on them. I wanted just plain sleepers. So annoying but moving along...
After not having any success looking for sleepers, I started looking for what I would like for a baby. I saw tons of cute girl clothes but not a thing for boys. My heart just melts looking at these little clothes and thinking one day (god willing), we will have a baby of our own. The other thing that I am in love with at Target is this stroller/car seat/carrier set. Perfect gender neutral so right up our alley! They have a high chair and pack-n-play that matches it. It is orange and gray and it has been the only one that has stuck out to me that I like. Is it normal to be out looking at baby stuff when you don't have the baby or pregnant with the little one yet???
For me, it is my way of keeping my spirits up. It is a happy time to take time out to look at the baby stuff I want. This is my way of dealing with this whole process of not having our baby yet (or pregnant with that being said) after a year of trying. My joy is looking at the things I like and making mental notes because one day we will be buying the stuff for our own baby and not as a gift for another person's baby.
I can't wait to register, shop, and browse through items for our baby. Call me selfish or call me crazy but to each their own and I hope I will never be judged for doing this.
